Pain.
I guess everyone have their own share of pain. I could really use a wish right now, a wish for time to stall. No, it’s not that I do not have enough time, it’s just that I seriously believe that I have really poor time management. It’s gotten so serious right now that I have lost control over my life and I don’t like it.
I have just upset-ed my girlfriend again and I feel so shameful about it. It’s already don’t know how many times I’ve pushed back our dates ever since last semester when I began on Shredded. I haven’t been updating at the small little space where we share our hidden love for each other because I’m simply too ashamed to even apologize there anymore. Where did the Kelvin who once believed in devotion?
And school is becoming more and more stressful for me. Again, time management is one reason why I feel so stressed. I understand how all these are part of the growth process yet I can’t help it. I am so jealous of my classmates, they are just so brilliant and so true to themselves. I always wonder why do I always not have enough faith in myself, making me working like a snail vying so hard against all odds just to survive through each and every single path I take without being crushed.
Tell me, tell me why?
PS: Baby, yea you. You know I’m dedicating this message for you. Share with me your thoughts, because I don’t want you to bottle all your unhappiness. You don’t have to bear such anger and unhappiness to keep this relationship going. Let me continue to have this part to play to give you happiness.
Is alright dear.. I will be fine after a while.. I know u have been busy with work so I dun blame u for tht.. So.. No worries!